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I miss wrting there

I will write the dairy of days

O.K I will start …   from     1-6-2010   to  7-6-2010

1-6-2010

these days I am just preparing for exams  >_<

I went to my room to pry in there was my little sister hidden behind the sofa

I felt something move I socked I couldn’t move my hand to open the door to escape  I thought it was a cat hahah I did’t think ever how that cat comes to my room

I could even cry then my sister said loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool I shocked u

My Glass

23 day > for the long HOLIDAY 🙂


My brother called me to go with him to help him to chose shirts

I went there but I didn’t find beautiful shirts instead of choosing shirts I bought a nice glass to my study 🙂

go away

on a day … u was alone just moving ur eyes to the others who were passing u looking at u
on that day I gave u my hand with a smile
when u don’t know anyone just staying at that chair
I took u to stay with us
when u don’t know any girl
I introduce to others
I just felt about u
I loved u that time
coz I didn’t know deeply
when u got all what u want u just left  me in an indirect way !
stay with me throwing bad words !
is that  …. thank u … in ur dictionary ?
is that the friendship which u know ?
I know u think I didn’t understand yet or as u say I am  a lovely girl !
u don’t know that I am just waiting and trying to ignore u , ur works and words
just coz I want to pass this level without any problem
I don’t want to lose any one at the end of the last term
so I just tried to ignore u and escape from u
now …. u losing me
I will not miss u at all
I will not miss any thing of u
coz I didn’t receive any kind of a good relationship with u
u know u lead me to bad thing
I just know believed in that wisdom which says the fried lead his friend
yah u lead me to the worst thing in the world
by u I learned many bad habits
I waked up to see u trying  to change my thinking
making me hate some lovely pp and see just the bad things of them
as u blind my eyes at their good works
I am in the first time of life feel that I win
I need time to rearrange my thinking and my view of pp
any way plz be away of me
don’t talk to me
don’t say good morning or good bye
try not to meet me
coz I want to be happy
I don’t need any thing to change my mood
so I say it slowly … goooooo awaaay …
finally I am breathing

my brother’s operation ,,, My friend become a mother

Today mamy waked me up at 12 to prepare the lunch coz she will go to her appointment in a hospital also my brother

I prepared it then came back to sleep then waked up to see 6 miss call and 2 msn they want to tell me that My friend become a mother today,,,,,  my friend born a baby , a girl  finaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaly


then went to see my fimaily and shocked when they told my my brother made that operation

He was very tired and crying all the day 😦 😦 😦 😦 I just want to cry with him

real dreams

the first thing I said OK  , it’s a dream but then it becomes a real thing !
it repeats many days and many events
I hated sleeping coz of that things
do u believe that

I dreamed that as I saw as we decided to go to a certain restaurant winch it impossible to go there coz we don’t like that kind of restaurant any way my little brothers were happy but at the evening mamy said no I am tired I can’t go with u so u canceled that
then I waked up … it’s dream Ghala 🙂
but I shocked when my little sister told me that we will go to that restaurant  ><oh my God in fact I forgot that dream and prepare for going out
then mamy said no I am tired at that moment as one hits me I said yaaaaaaaah yaaah I knew we r not going

another one
I just had a dream that one of my relative who is living in  another city comes to us and me with my brother went out as if we were hiding from my sister
we went to shopping but we moved from one shop to another finally we came back to the first shop and bought a red flower to my sister
we wanted it as a surprise …
I waked up aha it’s a dream it’s OK
but at the evening that woman came !!!!!!!! at th same time I went to supermarket with my brother
but before that he asked me to buy ipod as a surprise for my sister so that he didn’t tell her that we r leaving
we went to many stores finally came back to the first and buy it ….
is that my dream !!!!!!!


another one is today which leads me to write this is my dream
I saw as one gave me small cakes then as I went to chose ice cream I choose many kinds of ice cream
then I waked up … it’s dream Ghala 🙂
I went to wash my face after that my brother calling me
he gave me a can , I just about crying I said plz said it’s not cakes
he laughed haha yah it is how did u know ? I just brought it now without telling any one !
then I went to the fridge to take something but I socked when I saw the ice ….. it’s like that kind in my dream
I cried mamy I saw them I saw that cake
she answered that : umm comman u just imagine that
she didn’t belive me 😦

also there were aother old situation but I didn’t mention it

also there were another old situation but I didn’t mention it there ,,, also when I was 15 years old I saw in my dream my exam’s paper but I couldn’t remember the Q but it was the same arrange !

I just need an explanation for that

why that happen to me ?

how can I stop that ?

pet cat

I waked up at 1:30 pm has a big headache I couldn’t even walk may be coz of the ice

my brother find a little cat he thought it’s a good cat but in fact it’s like a monster

we came back carnying my head with full of pain

I am bored and dislike to study

I am trying to encourage myself plllllllllllllz ghala it’s the last

I don’t want to be like that

I really want to change

so I took an advice and worked on it 🙂